I Will Follow Him.

It was a song when I was a teen. "Follow him where ever he may go. There isn't a mountain too high, an ocean too deep that would keep, keep me away." Funny, songs that are important to you when you are growing up. That was one of mine. I thought I was destined to follow my man anywhere, forever. But that has been jeopardized now. Dave may be leaving with the band to go on the road. Kelly's pretty serious about it, and when Kelly's serious, then it usually becomes reality. I've already told Dave that I wouldn't be going. Naturally Candy is going with Kel', and Tina is going to be with Floyd, but they don't have the commitments here that I do. If this would have happened 20 years ago, I would have probably gone. I have a lot of grandbabies and responsibilities here. The house has been paid for now for a while, and my two boys here at home still need a parent, even if they are teens. Kelly has already said "no kids!" That wouldn't stop me anyway. If Dave bought a mobile home, and we wanted to take the boys, then we would. That's our business! I just don't want to go. Bottom line! I don't want to be at concerts and in bars every weekend. I want to be at home with my family. I want to know that I'm close to my grandchildren. Silly as it may seem, I'm finally rooted somewhere. I've got 8 cats for gosh sakes! I've got a goose! Who's gonna' babysit? I also want to stay near my sis, Bonnie. I never get to see Barbara, but I still need to know we're close to each other! Another reason, I have found it harder and harder to feel relaxed in the car. It always was, as my family members know well, that I was afraid to drive. Now, as I'm getting older, it's hard to even be a passenger, especially at night. The really major H'ways scare me to death! So what I'm looking at, are years without Dave. That's what they will be facing. The bookings will go on way ahead of them. I've told Dave to go; I want him to go. I wouldn't want him to miss it for anything in the world. He had an opportunity like this in the past, and he turned it down. The boys were just tykes, and we couldn't do it. Now, he has that chance again, and I want him to take it. You know, I'm thinking that I can join him once in a while on weekends. How awesome would that be?!! Really great and fun. We would be sooo glad to see each other. I love Dave, he loves me, but I can't follow him. It's too late. Hey, What do you think?