Depression

I'm not so sure what it's all about. I'm so lonely. My children never come to see me. I never get out of here. I don't think Dave loves me, or even wants to be with me anymore. I don't know when I've ever been so lonely. I just wish I could lay down and never wake up. I hate this computer. It's all I have. I would like to put an axe across it. Maybe I just need Spring. I have one friend online, but rarely get to visit with him. By the time I can finally get online, he's in bed fast asleep. I think I need to make some changes, or I'm going to go off the deep end. Oh God, I miss so many things. Jonny, Sarah, Cindy, Jo-Jo. Now even Davy is gone. I have Matt here, but I think he's as miserable as I am. It's like I have to make decisions that are best for both of us. If I don't do something, we are both going to sink. Can't Dave see how unhappy his family is, or does he simply not care?Hurry back Spring. I have plans for me and Matt.

My Comments?

Well, I don't know what's going on in Blogvill, but every single one of my comments are missing! All the comments on everything I've written! Of course I've written them a letter, and recieved word that I'm on hold. I don't know if there's anything they can do about it. It just really upsets me. I liked to come in here and read them once in a while. Not to mention the fact that my family and friends are going to think that I deleted all their comments. I hope that it can be repaired. I guess that's all I have to say about that! However, if a newcomer happens to show up here in "Sun's Up", I want you to know that I did have comments. I don't sit here entirely by myself. Gosh! I wish I could plant a sad face right about here<>.